Have you ever felt like you are going backward – spiritually, that is? I was reviewing several areas of my life lately and I felt that way. I was thinking of the first bloom of passion and zeal for the Lord I felt when I was newly saved. I was thinking of some tough battles from the past and how I came through them victorious.
Then of course, the comparisons from then to now came fast and furious. I began to think: you would have thought I would have made more progress by now. I’m not very far along am I? Golly, I was more spiritually minded in the beginning than I am after all these years. The next thing you know, hopeless futility was crouching at my door.
I was forgetting something important in judging my own spiritual progress. The first thing is that how far I get is not really my responsibility nor my achievement. “He who has begun a good work in you will complete it until the day of Jesus Christ.” (Philippians 1:6)
The second thing is that it isn’t always such a good idea to be delving into our own progress to begin with. “Therefore do not go on passing judgment before the time, but wait until the Lord comes who will both bring to light the things hidden in the darkness and disclose the motives of men’s hearts; and then each man’s praise will come to him from God.” (1 Corinthians 4:5)
Imagine that: God will praise us for the final result based on HIS evaluation of our life. Am I regressing? That’s for him to know and me to find out…in the end.