There is a pregnancy center in my town that helps women who are in crisis pregnancies. They do pregnancy testing for free and counseling and also provide practical helps like diapers and baby clothes. I just got a flyer about their upcoming “Walk for Life” which helps raise funds to support the ministry.
I’m so glad this ministry exists and that so many have been helped. Some times women considering abortion simply need support, encouragement, and viable options in order to make the decision to have their baby. BUT, I also sense there is a huge wall of silence out there by women who made the other choice: abortion.
Maybe it was ten years ago or maybe three months. Maybe it seemed right at the time but now she wonders: why can’t I get past it? Guilt swirls around inside all the time. Anniversaries of the event are never forgotten and depression marks the day.
The main thing is that this is something that is not spoken of. No one else knows or very few. What is there to say? Since there is no way to reverse it why not continue pushing it down inside and go on with life? With silence there is a hedge of protection from judgment but somehow the silence hasn’t brought peace.
Psalm 139 is often quoted as proof of God’s great love for the unborn. Verse 13-14 says; “For you created my inmost being; you knit me together in my mother’s womb. I praise you because I am fearfully and wonderfully made.” These words don’t just apply to an unborn child; they apply equally to you. YOU are fearfully and wonderfully made regardless of a wrong choice you have made.
Is it time to break open the silence? Here’s what David, the psalmist says about how he tried to cover his sins. “When I kept silent, my bones wasted away through my groaning all day long. For day and night your hand was heavy upon me; my strength was sapped as in the heat of summer. Then I acknowledged my sin to you and did not cover up my iniquity. I said, ‘I will confess my transgressions to the Lord’ – and you forgave the guilt of my sin” (Psalm 32:3-5).
If a wall of silence has been robbing your life it is time for a change. Speak to God and then to someone who can help you work through all the issues. Then you will join David saying; “Blessed is he whose transgressions are forgiven, whose sins are covered” (Psalm 32:1).